★ Death
Its something that you can't control. Something that you have to let go whether you're ready for it, or not at all. Hmm, I've lost someone that meant the world to me. Someone that inspired me. Someone that used to be my strength. And he's my Tokwan. I used to be his favorite granddaughter. He loved to comb my hair. He hugged me whenever I cried. Whenever I need something to cuddle with.
Ya Allah, whatever happened. He's the best damn thing that ever happened in me. No matter how far he is right now, I'd never forget him. No matter what happen. He taught me whats life is. You're the melody of my songs. You know, my life is a mess right now. And I need you. I really do. I miss you like seriously missing you. I'd do anything just to hold you for the last time. I'd do anything just to see that smile again. But I know, I wouldn't be able to. But just now. Really. Alhamdullilah. After solat. I fell asleep. And I don't know whether it was real or not. But I saw him walking towards the toilet for wuduk. Then I saw him praying in front on me. On my sejadah. After he done praying, he smile at me and kissed me at the forehead. But things happened too quick. And he's gone. But still, I could feel the warmth of his kisses. I cried. And still crying, right now. I miss him. Eventho that wasn't real or whatever, I'm more than glad. At least, I could feel him just for a moment. Even for a while. It worth it !
My Lord, thank you. Thank you for giving me this such of opportunities. I'm so happy. There's no word could ever express this such of happiness. And thank you Allah. Thank you :')
I'll be missing you as much as I can. I love you :')
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