★ Us :)
Thanks dearest Rafeq sbb kau slalu jadi penyelamat. You're my second Superman. You're always there. Even if you mad at me, you will always there to cheer me up. Your words always give me strength. You know me the best sayang :') I'm sorry for everything that I've spoken and everything that I've did towards you. I've hurt you a lot and you're still standing for me. How can I live without you?

Rei : I hate this you know. I don't know. Is he ashamed of me?
Rafeq : Why does you keep saying all of that nonsense? Stop being crap.
Rei : I don't know. Kalau nak bezakan aku dgan ex dia, mcam langit dgan
bumi. Serious dia segak.
Rafeq : If a guy loves you, he wouldn't give a damn on your fucking
physical looks.

You know me well. You know how to make me feel good again. Thanks love. For everything that you've gave me. I swear to God that I'd do anything just to make you happy. Just to keep the drop dead gorgeous smile. I miss you. Even we're the distance keep us far, but you're always on my mind. I heart you and I'm willing to do anything for you. That is how much you meant to me :)

' If you love him, you don't easily get frustrated in him. Have faith Nur Raihan. Aku tak suka nak
bagi kau bercinta. Tapi, I was too late. I'm afraid that you'd get hurt all over again '.

' But I know that you're one tough girl and you can always take a good care of your own self.
And that is why you're different from any girl that I've me. You're always my baby girl :) '

P.S : I'm dying to meet you right now. I know that you'd be reading this. I love you so fucking damn much Syed Rafique Adha B. Syed Khalil Syah. Your smile is my happiness after all. I'm sorry for everything that
I've done. You are my world :D

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★ Beautiful is subjective.
Hello to all my fellow whatever. Okay I'm totally being a crap. Okay wait, Kae, I know you'll be reading this ass. And why did you write this such of thing :
'RAIHAN JIYOUNG
She's the richbrat whom is my gayfriend :3'

Seriously dude, richbrat? Hahaha, damn it. Okay whatever. Aku tggu hg on ni weh. Kamon kamon. Dah kedut dh muka aku ni. Dah kurang cantik ni. And also, thanks for the post about me. Its sweet. Gmbaq yg hg edit tuu aku dh letak kat phone aku. Okay? I love it :D

Aku benci laa bila org letak dkat facebook gmbaq and letak caption macam dssnsadsdyhd. Seriously, have a life. Okay, lemme give you some example.
'Like or comment, kalau tak suka boleh belah'.
'Saye tak cantik macam korang'.
'Aku tak cantik pun mcam hmpa. Thanks like or comment'.
'Sorry laa saya tak hot mcam anda smua. Saya biasa jaa'.

Dayuum, for serious? Dah tau muka tak elok tak payah letak gmbaq. Kan senang :) Then comment2 pulak msti mcamni.
'Alaaa cantik laaa. Sapa ckap tak cantik?'
'Ambuii comelnya, nak kenalan boleh?'
'Mcamni tak hot? Ni laa hot babe'.

Like SERIOUSLY? That person wants some compliments. Whatever, seriously. Get a life. Be thanked for what you had. And that hot thingy aint shit. It assured nothing. Be yourself. That is the main point of living. You won't feel the life until you begin to be alive. What is the point of being famous anyways? Is that fucking important? I guess na'aa for me cuz all of that bullshit ain't matter. Just have fun while living. Grab the life!

Thanks for reading and also, smile more often cuz it worth it :)

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★ The most awesome girl :D

Okay, I made this one exactly for you. My most important person in life. I'm still wondering. What am I without you. Even you're a fool but still I love you the most sissy. You teach me to be strong eventho I'm not. I thank you a million of times for saving my sanity. Hehehe, well you are not that good when it comes about guys. But you're still the best :D

You always confuse of me and that girl. Well for serious. She's no one in my life. She is just a school mate. Nothing more. She didn't even care about me as you always did. So did she deserved to be someone for me? Well, you know me well Kae. Seriously, we've been friends for 5 years and surely you're the best damn girlfriend I ever met. I miss you sissy :( I wanna meet you someday. Yeah practically I'm being this gay. Awww, when it comes about you, there's nothing I can do. Hehehe. You should snap my picture sometimes because I'm pretty. Hehehe. Okay sorry for ignoring you lately. Gomen ne :( But whatever, aitakute :'(

Kae, I love you and thanks for being a good listener .
You're there for my up and down. Aishiteru yo and also, Aitakute ;(

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★ Stupid ~
Arghh, smua org dh nak balik tempat masing2. Sodeh eden :( Okay skrg dah tak balik awai pagi dh. Skrg dah jadi budak baik. Dah tak mengarut dh. Dh takpi tgk pondan. Dh tak kcau anak teruna org dh. Hurm, life dah start bosan dah :(

No more loud voice. No more cigarette's smoke ( ID smoke, don't get me wrong ) No more funny business. No more shemale. No more winks. No more karut2. No more laugh. Hurm. I just miss everything. Najwa Mansor, do the best for you examination. Take a good care of yourself. And please take a good care of Muqri :D hehehe. Okay gataiii. Nak buat cmnaaaa, dia hnsem sgtttt. Yahhhh, manisnya senyuman mu Muqri :) Aip aip. Hehehe

Okay, I miss you the most Mr. AM :( I hope that you'll be fine wherever you are. You know that I love you the most. Gerak you pg2 tak pernah I rasa menyusahkan tau dak. Don't mention it. I love you :) Thanks for bringing the LIFE again. I love you on every beats of I'm living. I'm always here and would always support you. Your love is all I need. You are my most priority. I'm sorry for any harsh word that I've spoken. I wonder how would I live on without you. Still wondering. I hate it when we're in a fight. I just hate it. Afraid of losing you :(

OKAY SUDAH. Bye nyiah >,<

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★ You hurt me deep inside.
Okay, first of all, I don't hate you as you did. That is your fucking business and I don't give any flying fuck. Who are you to call me that such of thing? Who the hell are you? I ain't bitch. You might be one :) I think that you got a problem with your own IQ. Really. Hish, is it really necessary for you to call me that such of thing? Don't judge me that way.

I'm kinda piss off cuz I don't even give a damn on you. Cakap pasal hg lagi laa tak pernah. Okay? So kalau hg nak kata kat aku, mai laa kata depan. Tak payah nak buat good-good dlam blog sgt. You're such a douchebag. You don't know me well. Becuz of you, we had a fight. My fever became worst than before. Alhamdullilah aku makin okay. Tau dak sbb hg laa semalam aku tak boleh tidoq. Aku pkiaq pasai nii. Whether he still loves you or no. You got me real well. You hurt me the best.

If you still love him, why does you leave him just like that? You know that he loves you the very fucking much and you're being selfish. I was there for him. I don't know how does it start but before you dump him I got no feeling on him. I treat him as a friend. Really. But you didn't trust him. That is your problem. Well right now please, stop calling me that crap. I'm not a bitch. What makes you call me as it? Well I'm sorry for hurting your feeling.

Aku dah pkiaq smalam. Aku yang jahat atau hg yg silap. Aku taktau. Tapi aku tau yg aku tak curi dia dri hg. Hg yg lepaskan dia. I didn't wish for this. Aku tak berniat pun untk jatuh cinta dgan dia ka apa ka. Tak pernah pun. But its all happen by itself. Fullstop I'm sorry over and over again. Jaaa neee.

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★ 199
I miss everything :'(

I miss Rusty. I miss my homie. I miss my helmet. I miss my boot. I miss my jodphurs. I miss my whip. I miss the smell of horse. I miss the air that blow my hair when the horse is galloping. I miss the sound. I miss everything. I don't have that such of life anymore. Right now, I'm not the old me. I'm no longer Rei BD, I'm Raihan Zabidi. Life isn't fun anymore.

But thanks to them for always cheering my ass off. They're Ahmad Muzaffar, Nadzurah Zabidi, Najwa Mansor, Adi Imran, Shafinas Shukri, Ti BD, and Muhd Ezzat. Okay, balik lewat malam. HAHA xD Tgk bapok like every night. I'm gonna miss you guys. Well, thanks for always rock my nights.

But lets talk about horsing. Well, kinda miss it like crazy. I'm not sure why but I'm pretty sad of Rusty's death. I miss him more than any shit. When everything is back to normal, I'll ask dad to buy a new horse for me. Hikhik :'>
Yada yada, I want to prove everyone that I can. I want to involve in endurance again. Jyeah, I miss the track. The smell of grass. The night and whatever. I miss the skinny me. I miss how tanned I am ( didn't miss it at all :P )

Well, whatever. I'm still happy with life. Hee, I love my boyfriend. I love my homie. I love me, myself. I really love it. Thank you homie for always cheer me whenever I'm in the middle of chaos :D

Bye-bye.

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★ Birthday :)
Well people, I got two things I wanna share. First I'm no longer single >,< Ihikkk. HAHA xD

Okay, don't wanna talk about it that much. Pray for our happiness eyy? Thanks <3

Okay tomorrow is ma birthday people of nations! Yeah, I'm getting old and even worst, I got wrinkles all over my VAGINA. Okay I'm lying _|_ haha xD WHAT IS WRONG WITH WRINKLES AND VAGINA? Nothing probably :)

Well, Ahmad Muzaffar, tomorrow is also your birthday aite yang? So, I'm wishing the best in life. I love you and thanks for always cheering me no matter how fool I am. I thank God for let me know you even better than before. You are a nice guy ever. I want to spend my life with you, Nadia, Najwa, Nadzurah, Adi Imran, Ti BD, Pinat and also, Umi :)
Goodluck for your examination. I'll pray the best for you. I'm currently waiting for my present :) Better give something or I'll bite you. HAHA xD Okay, enough :)

And I got message for Rei aka me :)
Let the river of pain flow freely. Give him a chance to love you and you have to love him more than any shit. Promise that you won't cheat on him as you did before. I love you baby, muah :*

Okay, again, tomorrow is my birthday and I can smell the devil's cruel plan. Don't even dare to throw me those smelly egg or flour. I'll kill you guys. No kidding baby. Okay, whatever. My ass is gettin' hot and I have to shake it out! Miahahaha >,< Bye readers <3

The Birthday Girl,
REI BD~

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