★ Prankstar
Hello to my dearest Prankstar. Okay I know that you guys would read this. Well I miss you guys the most :')
I'm sorry for things that I've spoken. I shouldn't say it. You know that I love him and you guys just easily mess up. I don't love D. Not at all. Even a single shit. I won't be with him all over again. I don't lick for what I've spitted. Thats all. I never been in this kind of thing. Being this Rei. No, I felt so miserable. I hate this mess. I have to choose between two - my homie, or the love of life. You guys always ask me what is so special about him. Its something that I can't find in other guys that I've been dating with. He's simply not like D. Seriously!
Rafique, we've been together since 5 and you just left me this way? What type of person are you?! Dammit, you didn't even cared of my feeling. I thought that you were different. Seriously, I'm frustrated of you. You treat me like a slut. You even give me the most annoying smirk. I hate it. But even you hurt me that bad, I still couldn't hate you. I'm too weak. Too weak to face you guys. I'm not the one who throw you out. You are the one! If this is what I've to face in order to be with him, I'LL DO IT! WITHOUT REGRET!
When I need someone to talk to, I know that I've lost it all. Everybody is leaving me behind. You guys got everything that you want, so whats the point of being with me? Right? I cry all night long. Wishing that everything is just a nightmare. Wishing that you won't say that such of thing. Wishing that this would never happen. Wishing for a stronger Rei. Wishing that everybody is here. There's nothing could describe this pain. There's nothing could make me feel any worst. Losing a good friend is way awful than losing my own pride. Everything that we've been thru is not worth it if this is the end.
I know that you guys dislike him. But I don't care. I need him. If this is selfish then tell me what the fuck are you?! This is not the way we should end it all up. I love him with all my heart. His love is like oxygen. Its not the gravity, its him. Its like a magnet. I couldn't leave him. I won't give the shit up. I don't care. I know whats best for my own self. I've grown up. I know how to take a good care of my own self. So you, just shut the fuck up. You're not even there when I need you. He was there to cheer me up. To lend me his shoulder. He bring the happiness along. His smile is love. Obviously that I couldn't live on without him. He's my happiness. I need him now forever and always. No one could understand me.
Maybe awak semua akan ckap 'Ah, after this bila dia break dgan laki tuu dia mesti cari ktorg. Sbb belum tntu laki tuu jodoh dia'. Well nobody knows. Kerja Tuhan kan? So right now, I could only try to make him mine. To be with him at worst or anything. To be patient when it comes about his ego. To be a good listener when he's in a mess. Believe me, I know whats best for me :)
P/S ; I'm sorry for everything. I know that I shouldn't leave Prankstar. I'm sorry. I love you guys to death <3
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