★ To Dearest Umi Fatimatuz Zahraa Bt. Abd. Shukor.
I am insanely, madly, dramatically and whatsoever on baby Earth, piss the shit off. Kenapa everytime hang ada kawan baru hang akan tnggai aku again and again. What am I to you? As a friend who needed the most when you're in pain? Hah?! Why do you keep being like this? Where am I in your heart? Bila hang rasa nak, hang cari. Bila takmau, hang belah.

Hang kata kat Aida yang dia tnggai Afini bila ada Firdaus, semacam laa hang. Cuma hang tk tnggai aku sbb laki, hang tnggai aku sbb Pini. But seriously, kmi tk pernah marah hampa. Bukan salah hmpa. Totally naive :) But hang Umi, tah laa. Macam2 aku rsa dh ni; Mad, Angry, Tired, Sick, Pathetic, Lunatic, Hopeless, LOSER ! Aku bukan apa, AKU TERASA BAGAI KUCING KURAP LAPAQ PENYEPAK >,<

Hang tau apa? Hang takkan tau mcamna aku rsa sbb hang bukannya penah kesah pasai aku. Punya pasai aku laa aku nak post apa kat BLOG aku. Hang ingt hang sorg jaa bleh buat terok kat blog? Aku boleh jugak laa wei. Mungkin org hat bca ni akan kata yg aku ni perangai hawaq sbb snggup tulis mcmni kt kawan dia. But, those assholes know nothing. Not-a-thing ! We've been BFF since in Form1. Probably, hang cemuih dgan aku. Sng ja laa kan nak buang :) Sapalah aku kat hang. Aku tk memenuhi itu dan ini dan apa2 :)

Aku cumalah Raihan, that ordinary girl who use the same road to school. I am me. Definitely, me :) An average kid who know nothing. You won't ever be happy with me. Won't. We won't gonna be the same. Apa2 hal pun hang kongsi dgan Afini. Aku ni apa laa sgt. Tkkan paham sbb hidup aku tk se-happy hang. Hang rasa aku jahat sbb aku tk ikut hg solat dan aku tk pakai tudung mcm hg. Umi, aku sesungguhnya ada hati dan perasaan. I am the person who always get hurt even a small shit ass thingy. Aku mungkin tk solat dpan hang. Tp, hang bukan 24/7 ada dgan aku. You don't know me. Obviously nope.

Dulu, susah senang bersama. Tp skrg, susah bersama senang tunggang langgang. Hurmmm. But again, I AM DEFINITELY NOT BEING MAD AT YOU AFINI NABILAH BT. ABD. HADI. Sbb totally, hampa tk buat apa kt kmi. Tp kmi sgtlah terasa sbb hmpa usha kmi semacam. Hurmm. Just Umi, stop pretending. Say it loud if you really hate me cuz I really don't give even a single FUCK. Sbb aku dh redha dgan semua. What comes around goes around. I can't stop it. Stop saying bad words behind me. Why don't you attack me as you did to Aida and DekQah. Sesungguhnya td mmg aku nk p tnya apa msalah hg. Okay?

P,S ; Sorry readers, aku tk berniat nk bukak aib. Tp, ni blog aku. Life aku, klau tak suka silalah katup mata bilang 1,2,3 dan close tab. Sekian :)

XOXO,
Rei BD :)

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